The therapist’s office smelled faintly of coffee and lavender. Warm lighting softened the room, golden against the rain tapping quietly at the tall windows behind them. A bookshelf lined one wall, filled with titles about grief, attachment, forgiveness, trauma. Words Shayla was already tired of hearing. Cole sat beside her on the couch, one ankle resting over his knee, sleeves rolled up to his forearms.
Calm on the outside. Too calm. That irritated her because she could feel him watching her again. Not openly. Not intensely. Just constantly. Like he was trying to memorize a language he used to speak fluently and had suddenly forgotten. Their [clears throat] daughter slept in the carrier beside Shayla’s feet. Tiny fingers curled beneath her chin.
Completely unaware that her parents were sitting inches apart trying not to destroy each other. The counselor glanced between them gently. “So,” she said softly, “why did you fall in love?” Shayla let out a short breath through her nose. Cole answered first. “She made me feel alive.” Her eyes flicked toward him before she could stop herself.
There was no hesitation in his voice. No performance. Just truth. The counselor noticed immediately. “And what about you, Shayla?” She swallowed once. “He made everything feel easy.” That hurt more than she expected because nothing about them was easy anymore. The counselor leaned back slightly. “Then somewhere along the way, love stopped feeling safe.
” Silence. Cole’s jaw tightened. Shayla stared at the sleeping baby carrier beside her. Finally, she spoke quietly. “I spent our entire marriage wondering if I mattered enough.” Cole turned toward her instantly. “You mattered more than anything.” “But I never felt it. The words landed hard. The counselor watched them carefully.
Can you explain that? Shayla laughed softly, but there was no humor in it. He loved loudly in the beginning. Grand gestures, teasing, possessiveness, passion. Her eyes drifted toward Cole unwillingly. He made me feel chosen. Cole didn’t look away from her once. But, after a while, she continued quietly. It became exhausting trying to hold onto someone who kept emotionally disappearing.
That’s not fair. It’s true. I was trying. You kept leaving me alone even while standing next to me. The room fell silent again. The counselor looked toward Cole. And after the accident, his expression changed instantly. Something darker moved behind his eyes. Confusion, frustration, fear.
After the accident, he said slowly, I woke up feeling like someone had stolen my entire life and handed me pieces I couldn’t connect anymore. Shayla looked at him then. Really looked at him. Because that that sounded honest, too. Cole rubbed his jaw slowly before continuing. I know everyone thinks the hardest part was losing my memories.
His voice lowered slightly. But, it wasn’t. The counselor tilted her head. What was? Cole looked directly at Shayla. Watching her look at me like she was grieving someone who was still alive. The breath caught in Shayla’s throat. Damn him. Damn him for saying the exact thing she never wanted him to understand.
The counselor gave them both a moment before speaking again. Trauma changes relationships, she said gently. But, grief inside a marriage is complicated because both people feel abandoned. Shayla’s eyes burned suddenly. She hated crying lately. Ever since giving birth, emotions sat too close to the surface. Cole noticed immediately.
Of course, he did. He shifted instinctively toward her before stopping himself halfway. That tiny hesitation hurt more than if he had touched her. The counselor noticed that, too. “You still want to reach for each other,” she observed quietly. Neither answered because they both knew it was true.
The problem was that wanting each other had never been their issue. The session ended 40 minutes later with breathing exercises, communication homework, and a suggestion to rebuild emotional safety. Shayla nearly laughed at that. Rebuild emotional safety, as if hearts were houses, as if you could repaint damaged walls and pretend nothing rotten existed underneath.
Outside, rain poured steadily over the city. Cole carried Eli against his chest beneath his coat while Shayla walked beside him toward the car. Neither spoke for several minutes. Streetlights reflected gold across the wet pavement. Finally, Cole opened the passenger door for her. She paused. “Thank you.” His gaze lifted to hers slowly.
“You always thank me now.” The comment caught her off guard. “What?” “You didn’t used to.” His mouth curved faintly. “You used to just expect me to take care of you.” Her chest tightened unexpectedly. “That was before.” Before the accident. Before the lies. Before becoming strangers. Cole buckled Eli carefully into the backseat before sliding into the driver’s seat.
The rain continued drumming softly overhead as he started the engine. For a while, the only sound between them was the heater humming quietly. Then, “Did you mean it?” Shayla frowned slightly. Mean what? What you said in there. She looked toward him carefully. That I made everything feel easy. He nodded once. She hesitated. Yes.
His grip tightened on the steering wheel. I wish I remembered that version of me. Something about the way he said it cracked through her defenses for a second because he didn’t sound arrogant. He sounded devastated. Like losing his memories had stolen pieces of himself, too. Cole exhaled slowly.
I keep trying to imagine what it felt like loving you before all this. Her heartbeat stumbled once. And his eyes flickered toward her briefly before returning to the road. And I think it must have been unbearable. Her brows pulled together slightly. Why? Because even now, he said quietly, I can barely breathe around you sometimes.
Silence crashed between them instantly. Shayla turned toward the window before he could see the effect those words had on her. Rain blurred the city lights into streaks of gold and white. God, why did he still sound like the old Cole sometimes? Why did he still know exactly where to touch her emotionally? The apartment smelled like fresh paint when they got home.
Yellow walls glowed softly beneath the evening lights in Eli’s nursery. Warm and gentle and hopeful in a way the rest of their marriage no longer felt. Cole carried sleeping Eli upstairs while Shayla disappeared into the kitchen to warm bottles and sterilize pump parts. Domestic. Normal. Dangerously normal. That was the problem.
Some moments with him still slipped too easily into old habits. Like muscle memory. Like love refusing to die quietly. She stood at the counter rinsing bottles when she heard footsteps behind her. Cole stopped near the doorway. “You missed a spot.” She frowned. “What?” He stepped closer and gently brushed yellow paint from the underside of her wrist with his thumb.
The contact lasted maybe 2 seconds, but her entire body reacted instantly. Heat curled low in her stomach. Cole noticed. His expression shifted almost imperceptibly. There it was again, that tension, that chemistry neither of them knew how to kill. Shayla stepped back first. “I’m tired.” “Shay.
” “I said I’m tired.” His jaw flexed once. “Running every time we feel something isn’t solving anything.” She laughed sharply. “Feeling something was never our problem, Cole.” His eyes darkened immediately. The air changed. Heavy now, electric, dangerous. Cole stepped closer slowly. “You think I don’t know that?” Her breath caught despite herself.
God, she hated when his voice dropped like that. Quiet, rough, intimate. “You think I don’t remember the way you look at me?” He continued softly, “Even now.” “Stop.” “You still want me.” “That doesn’t matter.” “It matters to me.” Her pulse thudded harder because he was close enough now that she could smell soap and rain and fresh paint on his skin.
Close enough that memory started becoming a physical thing between them. Vegas, kitchen counters, late nights tangled in sheets, his hands, his mouth, the version of Cole who used to look at her like she was the center of his universe. Shayla stepped back again too quickly and bumped lightly against the counter. Cole’s hand moved instantly to steady her waist. Both froze.
The contact burned. His fingers spread slightly against her hip before either of them could think better of it, and suddenly the room felt far too quiet, far too small. Cole looked down at her slowly. There was nothing blank in his eyes now, nothing distant, just hunger, raw and stunned and restrained with visible effort.
Shayla’s breathing turned uneven. This This was what destroyed her every single time. The moments where he felt exactly like the old Cole again. Cole’s thumb moved unconsciously against the fabric near her waist. Tiny movement. Tiny touch. Massive mistake. Because Shayla’s lips parted softly before she could stop herself. And Cole noticed that, too.
His restraint nearly snapped right there. “Tell me to stop,” he said quietly. Her heart slammed painfully against her ribs. She should. God, she should. Instead, she whispered, “Cole.” The sound of Eli crying shattered the moment instantly. Both jerked apart, reality crashing back violently. Shayla turned away too fast, pressing trembling fingers against her mouth while Cole dragged a hand through his hair roughly.
The baby monitor crackled again. Cole stared at her for one unbearable second longer before walking upstairs. Shayla stayed frozen in the kitchen long after he disappeared. Because the terrifying part wasn’t that she still loved him. It was that part of her still believed him when he touched her like that. Upstairs, Eli’s crying softened quickly in Cole’s arms.
He paced slowly through the dim nursery, yellow walls glowing around him while rain continued falling outside the windows. His daughter blinked up at him sleepily, tiny, perfect, and somehow already capable of ruining him emotionally. Cole looked down at her carefully. “You’ve got her eyes,” He murmured softly. Eli yawned. Cole smiled despite himself.
Then his expression slowly faded. Because downstairs downstairs his wife was probably trying to remember why leaving him was the right choice. And the worst part he understood why. That terrified him more than anything. Marcus found Aurora three decks below the observatory. Not because she wanted to be found.
Aurora had spent 40 minutes moving through the lower corridors of the station like a ghost avoiding surveillance routes she herself had once designed. Past abandoned storage bays. Past maintenance shafts humming with old electrical current. Past crew quarters darkened for night cycle. She had needed distance from him. From the way he looked at her lately.
Like every conversation between them was balanced on the edge of something dangerous. The lower hydroponics chamber was nearly empty when she stepped inside. Artificial night mode dimmed the massive garden into soft silver shadows beneath rows of suspended grow lights. Water trickled quietly through filtration pipes beneath the floor grates.
It reminded her too much of Earth. Too alive for a station built to survive the cold silence between planets. Aurora leaned against one of the metal railings overlooking the botanical levels below. Arms folded tightly across her chest. She closed her eyes. And immediately saw him again. Marcus standing in the observatory hours earlier.
Watching Elijah touch her arm. Not angry. Worse. Wounded. That expression had unsettled her all evening because Marcus Vale was many things. Ruthless, calculating, terrifying when necessary. But vulnerable had never been one of them. A quiet set of footsteps entered the chamber behind her. She didn’t turn around. “You’re becoming predictable.
” She said softly. Marcus stopped several feet away. You disappeared. I needed air. We’re in orbit. You know what I mean. Silence stretched between them. Aurora could feel his stare even without looking. Heavy. Focused. The kind that made her pulse unsteady despite herself. Finally, Marcus spoke again.
You’ve been avoiding me for 3 days. She laughed once under her breath. You counted. Yes. The answer came too quickly. Too honestly. Aurora’s fingers tightened against the railing. That was the problem with Marcus lately. The honesty. Before the breach mission. Before the Odyssey incident. Before almost losing each other near the perimeter collapse.
Marcus [clears throat] had hidden everything behind discipline and command authority. Now emotions leaked through the cracks whether he wanted them to or not. And Aurora didn’t know how to survive that version of him. Slowly, she turned to face him. The hydroponic lights carved shadows across his face, catching the exhaustion beneath his eyes.
He looked like he hadn’t slept properly in days. Knowing Marcus, he probably hadn’t. You shouldn’t be down here, she murmured. And you should? That’s different. Why? Because I’m not the commander of the station. His jaw flexed slightly. No. He said quietly. You’re just the person keeping it together while I fail publicly. Aurora frowned immediately.
That’s not fair. It’s true. You’ve been under pressure since the council inquiry. And you’ve been pulling away since Elijah arrived. There it was. Finally. The real conversation. Aurora exhaled slowly and looked away toward the lower gardens. Elijah has nothing to do with this. Marcus stepped closer. That’s a lie. Her pulse stumbled.
Not because of the accusation. Because he was close enough now that she could feel his presence like gravity shifting around her. I don’t owe you explanations, she said carefully. No, Marcus agreed softly. You don’t. The gentleness in his voice hit harder than anger would have. Aurora hated that. She hated when he made space for her feelings because it reminded her too much of the man he used to be before command hardened him into steel.
You think I don’t see it? Marcus continued quietly. The way you relax around him. Aurora crossed her arms tighter. Elijah doesn’t carry the weight of an entire station on his shoulders. Marcus gave a faint humorless smile. So, that’s my crime now? Responsibility? No. Your crime is shutting everyone out every time things get difficult.
His eyes darkened instantly. That’s rich coming from you. She looked at him sharply. What’s that supposed to mean? It means every time someone gets too close to you emotionally, you retreat behind work and sarcasm and silence. Aurora stared at him. You don’t get to psychoanalyze me because you suddenly started having feelings again.
Something flickered across his face then. Something sharp enough to make her immediately regret the sentence. But Marcus only inhaled slowly. That’s what you think this is? Aurora didn’t answer. Because she didn’t know. That was the terrifying part. For months now, the line between them had become impossible to define.
They were commander and officer. Partners. Survivors. Two people orbiting each other so closely it had become difficult to tell where one ended and the other began. And somewhere along the way, somewhere between near-death missions and sleepless nights and quiet conversations in observation decks at 3:00 a.m.
, they had become something else, too. Something neither of them fully acknowledged aloud. Marcus moved closer again. Close enough now that her breath caught despite herself. “You think I’m confused,” he said quietly. “I think you’re lonely.” His gaze locked onto hers. “And you aren’t?” The question slipped beneath her defenses too easily.
Aurora looked away first because loneliness had become the background noise of her life years ago. The station was full of people, yet somehow Marcus was the only one who ever saw through her completely. That should have comforted her. Instead, it terrified her. Marcus leaned one hand against the railing beside her, not touching her, never forcing, but close enough that she could feel warmth radiating from him. “Aurora.
” The way he said her name, soft, low, careful, it did dangerous things to her heartbeat. “You don’t get to look at me like that,” she whispered. “Like what?” “Like I’m something fragile.” His expression shifted slightly. “You are fragile.” She laughed quietly. “You clearly don’t know me at all.” Marcus stared at her for a long moment.
“Then, I know you sleep with the lights on after nightmare cycles. Aurora froze. I know you pretend to hate synth coffee but still steal mine every morning. Her throat tightened unexpectedly. I know you reread old Earth poetry when you can’t regulate your anxiety levels. Her pulse began thudding unevenly now.
“And,” Marcus continued softly, “I know know isolate yourself whenever you’re scared someone matters too much. Silence. Heavy silence. Aurora could barely breathe suddenly because those weren’t observations made by a commander. Those were the intimate details collected by someone who watched her constantly. Someone who cared.
Marcus’ voice lowered further. You think Elijah understands you better because he makes things easier. His eyes searched hers carefully. But easy was never what existed between us. No, she admitted quietly. It wasn’t. What existed between them was intensity, friction, tension sharp enough to cut skin, and underneath all of it, something devastatingly real.
Marcus’ fingers flexed once against the railing beside her. I tried to stay away from you. Aurora’s chest tightened. What? In the beginning, his mouth curved faintly without humor. You were reckless, arrogant, impossible to control. You just described yourself. That’s why it was a problem. Her lips almost twitched despite herself. Marcus noticed immediately.
God, that tiny almost smile from her nearly destroyed his remaining restraint. He stepped even closer now. Close enough that if she moved slightly forward, their bodies would touch. Aurora’s breathing turned shallow. “You drive me insane,” he admitted quietly. “You hide it well.” “No,” he said softly. “Not anymore.
” The honesty in that sentence cracked something open between them. Aurora looked up at him slowly. And there it was again. That look. Not command. Not authority. Want. Raw and exhausted and restrained with visible effort. Marcus lifted one hand toward her face, giving her every opportunity to stop him. Aurora should have stepped away.
Instead, she stood perfectly still as his fingers brushed gently against a loose strand of hair near her temple. The contact was barely there, but her entire body reacted instantly. Marcus noticed that, too. His expression darkened subtly. Aurora. She hated how weak her name sounded in his voice. How intimate. How dangerous.
“We shouldn’t.” she whispered. “I know.” Neither moved. The hydroponic lights glowed softly around them, silver against dark leaves and quiet shadows. Marcus’ hand lingered near her face longer than it should have. Aurora’s pulse was spiraling now because this This was exactly what she had been trying to avoid. Not attraction.
That part had existed for too long already. No, what scared her was emotional intimacy. The way Marcus looked at her now, like she was something precious enough to ruin him. “You’re scared of me.” he said quietly. Aurora forced herself to answer honestly. “Yes.” His eyes searched hers carefully. “Why?” “Because I don’t know where this ends.
” Something vulnerable flickered across his face then. “Neither do I.” That should have reassured her. Instead, it made everything worse. Because Marcus Vale hated uncertainty. Yet, here he was anyway, standing inches away from her like he was willing to walk blindly into emotional destruction if it meant reaching her.
Aurora swallowed hard. “You’re still healing.” she whispered. “From the Odyssey. From command stress. From everything that happened. And And maybe you just need someone close to hold onto right now.” Marcus’ expression hardened instantly. That’s what you think this is? I think trauma changes people. It does. His voice sharpened slightly.
It stripped away every excuse I had for not saying what I should have said a long time ago. Her heart stopped for one terrible second. Marcus looked directly into her eyes. When I thought you died out there, he said quietly, something in me broke permanently. Aurora’s breath caught. The station suddenly felt too small, too warm, too intimate.
Marcus stepped impossibly closer. Now there was barely space between them at all. I’m trying very hard, he murmured, to give you space. Her chest rose unevenly. Marcus. But every time you walk away from me lately, he continued softly, I feel it. The vulnerability in his voice nearly undid her. Because Marcus never admitted weakness. Not to anyone.
Yet somehow he always handed the sharpest parts of himself to her. Aurora’s fingers curled slightly against the railing to steady herself. You can’t say things like that. Why? Because you make me believe them. The confession slipped out before she could stop it. Both froze. Marcus stared at her like the universe itself had just shifted.
Aurora immediately looked away, panic rising fast beneath her ribs. But Marcus gently caught her wrist before she could retreat. Not forceful, just enough to stop her. Warm fingers around her pulse. And suddenly neither of them were breathing normally anymore. Aurora, he said softly, almost wrecked now. Look at me. She didn’t want to, because she already knew what she would see in his eyes.
The same thing living dangerously inside her own chest. Aurora hated how easily Marcus could unravel her now. Once upon a time, he had been impossible to read. Cold command decisions, controlled expressions, precision in every movement and sentence. Marcus Vale had built his entire reputation on emotional restraint so absolute that people aboard the station used to whisper that he was more machine than man.
Now she could hear the fracture lines in his breathing, could feel the tension in the hand still wrapped gently around her wrist, could see the dangerous honesty living behind his eyes, and somehow that version of him terrified her more. The hydroponics chamber felt smaller suddenly, warmer. The artificial night lights reflected softly across the water channels beneath the suspended gardens.
Silver-blue shadows moving slowly over Marcus’ face as he looked at her like she was both salvation and destruction at the same time. “Aurora,” he said quietly. “Look at me.” She forced herself to meet his gaze. Immediate mistake, because there was nothing guarded left there now. No commander, no emotional walls, just Marcus, raw and exhausted and devastatingly sincere.
Her pulse stumbled unevenly beneath his fingers. “You shouldn’t say things you can’t take back,” she whispered. “I stopped wanting to take them back a long time ago.” God, that voice. Low enough to feel intimate, controlled enough to sound dangerous. Aurora tried pulling her wrist free gently, but Marcus only tightened his hold slightly.
Not enough to trap her, enough to ask her not to leave. The difference mattered. It always mattered with him. “You’re emotional right now,” she said carefully. “That’s all this is.” His jaw flexed. “You really believe that?” “I think near-death experiences distort feelings. Marcus stared at her for a long moment before giving a faint humorless smile.
You know what I remember most from the perimeter collapse? Aurora’s breath caught slightly. Neither of them talked about that mission unless absolutely necessary. Too many people had died. Too much blood frozen into vacuum silence. Marcus’ voice lowered further. It wasn’t the alarms. His eyes stayed locked on hers.
It wasn’t the ship tearing apart. Aurora could barely breathe now. It was hearing your heartbeat disappear from my comm channel. Her throat tightened painfully. Marcus stepped closer. I’ve replayed that moment in my head every night for 3 months. Marcus. I thought you were gone. The words landed between them with crushing weight.
Aurora looked away instinctively, but his hand slowly released her wrist only to tilt gently beneath her chin, guiding her attention back toward him. Not controlling. Never controlling. Just careful. That somehow made it worse. You don’t get to say things like that after shutting me out for years, she whispered shakily. Pain flickered across his expression immediately. Fair. That was fair.
Marcus lowered his hand slowly. You think I don’t know that? He asked quietly. You think I don’t know I failed you? Aurora folded her arms tightly across herself again, trying to steady the emotions threatening to spill loose inside her chest. You only let people love the parts of you that are useful, she said softly.
Marcus went still. And the second things become personal, she continued, you retreat behind command protocols and emotional distance until nobody can reach you anymore. The silence afterward felt endless because she had hit something real. Marcus looked away toward the lower gardens for the first time since entering the chamber.
When he finally spoke again, his voice sounded rougher. My father used to say attachment was a liability. Aurora frowned slightly. Marcus rarely mentioned his family. In fact, she could count on one hand the number of times he ever had. He believed leaders became weak when emotions influenced judgment, Marcus continued quietly.
Said caring too much got people killed. Aurora watched him carefully now. There was something different about him tonight. Less polished. Like exhaustion had finally stripped away his ability to hide behind discipline. And you believed him? She asked softly. I tried to. The answer hurt more than she expected. Marcus exhaled slowly before looking back at her. Then I met you.
Her heartbeat turned uneven again. You challenged every decision I made. A faint shadow of amusement touched his mouth. Ignored rank constantly. You were insufferable. You nearly got reassigned twice. You threatened me with paperwork.
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